A Script or a Life?

So,

Sometimes I sit here and wonder about all the things that happen to me and all those that don't.

Is it all scripted? Is my Life a story someone else wrote? My 'destiny'... Have I no business in changing it or do 'I make the path'? Is everything I do written and the Universe just sits back with a big bowl of Extra Buttered Popcorn to watch the movie of My Life?

It's senseless to think so.

It's absolutely not worth it if that was the case; because then, every effort, every experience, every struggle, every win, every action, was planned and panned out for me to just... play them.

Where's the fun in that? Where's the sense in that?

Where's the learning? Where are the lessons? If everything was already mapped out and I just follow my destiny, what do I learn? when will I ever learn?

I've been a little slow in making my path lately; lethargic. I've just recently woke from a year-long repressed, uncomfortable, restless, stagnant slumber. Some parts of me have still not woken up from this slumber, but I'm getting there. Whether by crawling, day Dreaming, Osmosis, or any form of Quantum Physics, I don't care; I'm getting there.

Apparently, for now, this is where I'm supposed to be, and whatever I'm doing, is exactly what I ought to be doing. So 'doing it', I am. I'm sure that there will be lessons, tips, pointers, memories and a whole buncha' stuff I need to learn from all of this.

I haven't been writing a lot, and the things I have written I haven't considered them postworthy, so I haven't (posted them). There's this gap between Heart and Mind that I'm trying to fill, and I'm writing my way to it. I'm Slowly paving that road to Clarity, which is what I'm asking for; to Unity of Self. I'm pretty sure that's what I need. As soon as I achieve that Clarity, 'The Path' will come to be. But the hard work is up to me. No one can make that path for me.

*Since I'm sitting in the Director's chair, I've cut some parts out of the original, but that's pretty much how Movie Making works.

**Special Thanks to Michele Brivio, no se me olvida la conversación que tuvimos, gracias. Esto es parte del resultado, like I said, means a lot to me, and the things you said inspired my want and need to write and post :)

Love Always,

Tixah